Feeling Free

Hi all, I'm LG ;) First off, I gotta say that it feels really good to have found this site, a place to find encouragement to seek full recovery and 'divorce' my eating disorder! If you have been/are struggling with one, I wish you the strength to free yourself from the darkness that is ED.

The transition to college was difficult for me, particularly after the loss of multiple family members, and moving far from home. While there, I experienced horrendous stress and could barely stay in my dorm overnight due to an unforeseen and awkward roommate-boyfriend situation. I loved running, and it became too much, and an obsession to go to the gym over the winter when the weather was in the negatives. I was so cold, all the time. My bones started to hurt just from sitting in a chair and I withered away. I went to the doctor because my ankles became so swollen from lack of nutrition that I could barely walk across campus. I could press my thumb into my ankle and the imprint would stay for an hour. He told me that I needed to go to the hospital then, or go home. I was terrified to be hospitalized, so my mother came to see me at the doctors orders. That was the first time I'd seen her cry, she was so scared. I felt so awful for what I'd done to myself, and cried with her. The journey has been extremely difficult, but with outpatient help, a nutritionist, therapist, and anti-anxiety medication, I am feeling more free than I have in a very long time. I went to Brazil last week for a wedding, something I never could have done with ED. I ate foods without knowing what they were, followed my meal plan, and had the time of my life. I am now weight restored and feeling amazing. I can't wait to hear some of your stories, and getting to know you a little better!

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Thank you for sharing some of your story with us, and congratulations on your progress toward recovery! We're glad you're here. :)

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