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Taking Care of Yourself While Caring for Others

By Lauren Myers--Watching a loved one become someone they never were hurts more than anything. I watched my mother go from being energetic, outspoken and selfless to physically frail and cognitively limited due to chronic illnesses in front of my eyes. I was thrust into the role of being a caregiver with absolutely no warning. I had to learn how to deal with a world of responsibility at a young age. I became her main provider of her food, shelter, clothing, prescriptions, medical appointments, and transportation. Also, her primary source of entertainment and social engagement.

I had no idea how to handle this situation. I put my time and effort into trying to “fix” the world around me by channeling my energy into support. I thought that if I tried hard enough, I could be all the things to all people - daughter, sister, employee, student, community member. I became overly involved in many areas of my life to distract me from feeling my emotions. Eventually, all of this started to take a toll on my physical, mental, and emotional health.

I felt responsible for my mother’s health and believed if I didn’t do anything, no one would. Taking care of her was a demonstration of love and commitment. Any time spent away from her continuous care demands I equated as selfish. I internalized this belief along with weight stigmas, biases, and discrimination I was surrounded by during my childhood. I neglected my needs which eventually triggered an eating disorder.

It was difficult for my family to understand and recognize my internal struggles when it seemed externally that I was taking on their obsession of thinness and dieting. Their negative beliefs around their own body image and size was a reinforcement of my own eating disorder voice. I felt like I was constantly trapped in never-ending dialogues both in my mind and the world around me. I saw the journey of college as an escape from this environment and an opportunity to grow and discover myself both academically and personally.

Entering college is where I recognized I needed care, help, and support like I was giving to others. I didn’t want to continue being stuck in a pattern of thinking that taking care of others was easier than taking care of myself. I opened up about my struggles to other students, my advisers, and on campus counselors. I learned that I was suffering from anxiety and an eating disorder. It was a relief knowing another person was able to understand my struggles.

I thought that I was the only one who believed self-care is a selfish act. Now I know that isn’t true. It’s not selfish to care about my own health. It’s self-love. Breaking patterns and overcoming obstacles isn’t easy but it can be done. I took time to understand that I can’t stop the impact of my mother’s illnesses. I can only take responsibility for my personal wellbeing. I gave myself permission and found resources to make it happen.

About the blogger: Lauren is a student at Simpson College majoring in Philosophy and minoring in Women's Studies and Exercise Science. On campus, Lauren is involved TriDelta, SELF - a body positivity and activism group, SARA - Sexual Assault Response Advocates, and volunteering. 


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