So, hey there guys.
I honestly have no idea why I got the sudden urge to post here, but I guess I really just need to talk to someone, or let a few things out.
I don't understand anything anymore it feels like.
A year ago, (or well, close enough) around April or May-ish, I skipped a meal for the first time. It was at school. I was an 8th grader. It felt so amazing, the slight hunger in my stomach. So I did it again. And again. I kept at it for 3 days. Nine meals skipped. I remember the feeling. I was in such awful pain, but that pain, it kept me from focusing on the pain I felt inside of me. (things were really, really, bad then. Maybe I'll elaborate more on it some other time)
Then my friend shoved a roll in my mouth at lunch. She made me eat all of it too. Ever since then, I've dealt with eating issues. I've never been full out anorexic/bulimic. I've just had problems with eating, when things get bad. It just depends. When things get bad, I either don't eat at all, or eat too much, then feel bad about it, and feel that I have to skip meals to make up for it. This happens quite often, to be honest. It's awful.
And I don't even know what to do.
I want to eat, but at the same time, I don't.
And I feel so alone. Even with all these bodies around me. It's like NO one understands. Or well, that's how it feels.
Hope I can talk to some of you guys soon.
Stay strong.
Hi Heather, Thanks for
Yes, I have. My friends know
Hi Heather, Thanks for your
I'm glad there are people
Wow, Heather. I really admire
Thank you, Molly. It isn't a
Again I admire your insight.
It's still been hard, and
Hi Heather, I am one of the
Thank you, Lauren. I guess
Hi Heather, I'm sorry to
Things are always going to be
Heather, that sounds so cool!
I'm calling it "Think Bright,
Wow, Heather! That really is
Thank you, Molly. Lately,
I think that's great that you
Everything around me is
Good morning, I am Lauren ,
Why, hello Lauren. :) Why
Why, hello Lauren. :) Why